Fuuuhh..

Looking with a blank stare with no feeling at all.Huh...another moment in my life where I feel there is a need for something to happen..something to just happen to spark me up in my life.When Jason asked me.."How's life?",all I could mutter out under my tired breath is.."Well..it is an unhealthy life." By just saying those few words..I feel that yet again..my eyes have become much smaller..and much less receptive towards ideas that run up and down and pass me in my daily life.Often, I could not care less with what is going on in my life."Oh look!It is 5am plus!What am I still doing being awake at this ungodly hour?"."Now showing!Endless reruns of monotonous lectures and assignments"."Memories fly by me".What's worse..knowing that the enormity of the situation is much less than what I am perceiving and being apathetic towards the task of turning it around.Truly..I am an idiot.

Well,the other day,I went out with an old friend of mine who has just came back from outstation.Course,this is not the first time I've met him since he came back a few weeks ago,yet it is kinda cool since the rest couldn't make it for the day to to everyone's busy schedule and it's kinda like well,only 2 of us are hanging out together for the afternoon.It is pretty nice just to see the kind of friend whom you've known for a very longg time and it's equally great just listening..and trading stories with what has been happening with our lives currently.And the occasional references to events long gone never fails to evoke fond laughter that can only be shared with those whom you've known for a large part of your life.

At first,the trip to meet up my friend does feel a tad bothersome for me since I was feeling extremely tired due to the morning lectures I have just attended plus the aforementioned unhealthy lifestyle I am living.Yet,things do turn out in a way one least expects it to be..truly a timeless piece of wisdom from whoever thought it up in the first place.

I reached the place where we are supposed to meet up early,so naturally, I had time for myself.God it felt like ages since I've had time for myself.My mind has been a constant blur for some time now doing things and it's great just to take things really slowly and just let my mind drift away from the constant grind of living.It was nice just watching people passing through and fro from the bench I was lazing at.I even managed to take the longest time to browse the music store and got a really nice cd by Oscar Peterson and Joe Pass.And to top off all that jazz,I noticed how simple our people could be when I saw a group of Malays waving at David Arumugum,the last surviving member of the Alleycats.Truly amazing.And he was just dressed up in the most simplest but proper manner 'tapaoing' his food in a lunchbox.Our people truly are a bunch or simple folk.Kinda sad to see how complicated matters could turn out to be when the ball lands on the politicians feet.

One thing struck me during the conversation with Kuharaaj. We just watched a movie on the 15th attempt of Hitler's assasination titled Valkyrie. Naturally, our talk revolves around all the hoohahs surrounding Nazis and eventually,it hit this point where we were talking about freedom.Sort of.

"It is kinda sad to see how the majority of people duduk atas pagar huh.First they supported Tom Cruise's character,then they deserted him when they found out Hitler is still alive..wat the heck?Sadlah.Imagine what could have happened if they stuck with him til the end!Problem solved".
"HAHA you just look at Perak lah,now we got 2 governments!HAHAHA!Anyway did u read the news about the duno who some kinda catholic priest..I think he's a Bishop or something.Well they was this interview bout the Holocaust and they got him to ask for his opinion regarding the subject.And it just happened that he replied 'Well in my opinion,logically there should only be about 100k deaths,not the millions and billions it is said to be'.And for goodness sake after that piece of opinion the man gave,he got blasted by all quarters flaming him with being pro-Nazi and all that.He even got fired or something by the Pope I think not really sure though.Pity the man,they just asked for his opinion and he just answered based purely on his own opinion and he got condemned?Sure I might not agree with what he said but dude,I'll say give the guy a break!What do you think?"
"Dude that fella is wrong!", I found myself speaking without thinking.
"Man..are you serious?That guy is just stating his opinion.He is not entitled to be persecuted just because of that?And they did chose him for an interview!Does he really has to say what the others want to hear?"

And I got lit up all of a sudden.Oh my God what has gotten into me?I have gotten really numb and oblivious to what is happening around me!Why?Why must society has to seep in to the norm?Are we really just another brick in the wall?Couldn't we muster enough strength of will must we really accept anything as it goes just as we are told to do it?Aren't we allowed to scrutinize and comment?It is not that we are purposely purporting trouble or trying to cause trouble.Why can't we be left alone in peace with our own ideas in our head and continue to live harmoniously with the rest of the people?

And so in the end we just both laughed off the idea of "Freedom of speech" and proceeded to some other funny nonsense to talk about.